If you read The Best of 2017, you know that last year was trying. I spent a lot of time thinking about why the year was so hard and what changes I needed to make in order for 2018 to be better. Rather than trying to make several drastic changes at once, I decided to focus on 4 main goals. Goal #1 is reprioritizing. I have a bad habit of overcommitting myself. For some reason, I think I can do it all and end up running myself into the ground. Since January, I’ve been reexamining my priorities. Instead of trying to make time for everything, I’ve been focusing on the things that are most important. If deadlines don’t kill me, I’ll be writing monthly updates on my goals.
God has always been an important part of my life. I grew up going to church several times a week and was always involved in Sunday school, youth group, and mission trips. Unfortunately, life got busy and somewhere along the way God stopped being at the forefront. Although I’ve never questioned my faith, I wasn’t giving God the attention He deserved. I was just going through the motions. The stress and disappointment from last year reminded me that when all else fails, God doesn’t. Refocusing on Christ is my most important goal. I’ve really been enjoying reading Mallory Larsen’s One Minute Devotions for Young Women. Its a quick and easy way to start my day and keeps me positive. I’ve also really been enjoying listening to Hillsong’s What A Beautiful Name and Casting Crowns’ Praise You In This Storm.
There are two things you should know about me: my immune system is nonexistent and I rarely accept that I’m sick. I’ve been known to say that “sickness is a state of mind” while running a fever and clutching a box of tissues. I force myself to work no matter how ill I am, which makes the situation worse. On top of that, I get a very limited amount of sleep. At the end of last semester, I was surviving on 3 to 4 hours a night. You could say I’m the poster child for healthy living. This year, I’m going to make a conscious effort to stay physically and mentally healthy. I’m giving myself the breaks I need to recover, making time for trips to the doctor, and reminding myself that sleep is a study skill. For my mental wellbeing, I’m taking a break from things and people that are detrimental.
The Verge of (Self) Love touched on this goal. Prioritizing myself is definitely the thing I struggle with the most. I’m willing to bend over backwards for people I care about but feel guilty when I focus on myself. Last year, I constantly went against my better judgment and put what others wanted before what I needed. This year, I’m going to stop being my biggest critic and focus on myself. Being a third year means that stress is a constant part of my life. Add in my perfectionism and breakdowns become the norm. I’m learning to accept that perfection is impossible and have set aside time to have fun. From doing face masks to watching Netflix without guilt, I’m making sure that I have at least one stressfree hour a day.